Saturday, 23rd February, 2008
My recent lack of postings has to do largely with my new job. I am now just over one month into it. Things are going about as I should have expected them to, which is to say that it’s sometimes very good, and sometimes very frustrating. I tend to be a little bi-polar the first two months in a new job, until I start feeling more comfortable with everyone and my new environment. So many days I come home feeling like I am fitting right in and making an impact, and other days I wonder whether I made the right decision at all.
Even though the company is 8 years old and has 80+ people, they still have the startup mentality. Lack of structure, Herculean efforts, flying by the seat of the pants… They’ve got some really smart people, and because of that, they succeed with this approach. Fortunately, they’re making strides to become a more “mature” company this year. That’s actually the part that’s the most exciting to me – not the client work, but the opportunity to really help establish some structure and process. It’s funny since getting away from bureaucracy was one of my main motivations for making a switch. But despite how extreme it got at my previous employer, there are still a lot of really good ideas to bring over.
The pace while at work is crazy. This is largely due to the above-mentioned lack of process, but also because of our own ability to generate new business. We grow conservatively to avoid the typical agency process of growing & shrinking as the work load fluxuates. While this is great for avoiding needing to lay people off, it also becomes difficult as hiring only occurs after everyone has been overloaded for a while. We’re in one of those tight spots right now, and for me personally, there’s been a ton of new business to participate in, while still leading one of our largest clients and trying to really learn my team and plan for our future. Fortunately, the crazy pace doesn’t usually carry over into the evening hours, but it does make for some very stressful days. Ultimately, I think I will like this once I’m settled in and more confident in what I’m doing. But for now…
My team is also very interesting. I went from managing 5-7 people in my previous role to managing 12 currently, with hopefully two more coming very soon. That also includes having two managers under me. This is an interesting change - less direct management of the team and more focus on helping the managers (both are new to people managing) grow their people. The team has a diverse background – some product management, MIS, marketing, project management… They’re all really bright and eager. They’re all really young too – I’ve never been in a role before where I’ve felt so OLD. There is much to work on, that in itself is a bit overwhelming. Focus & prioritization will be huge challenges for me this year.
Anyway, I logically know this is a great opportunity for me, and it’s all that I was asking for when I decided to make the move. It’ll just be a matter of time before I really get past the doubts, and get my head out of the way of my success.